tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-222548782024-03-07T00:19:47.650-06:00Just me and my boysjjofarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04983309138069771662noreply@blogger.comBlogger86125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22254878.post-80384524729259469222018-11-20T21:54:00.002-06:002018-11-20T21:54:32.713-06:00Updated Blog!!! I have been wanting to do this for some time, but please check out my new blog...all of my posts have linked so that was a success! :)<br />
<a href="https://ifarleyblog.home.blog/2018/11/20/the-journey-begins/" target="_blank">MY NEW BLOG</a>jjofarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04983309138069771662noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22254878.post-927523890160693652018-10-24T06:59:00.003-05:002018-10-24T12:50:34.407-05:00Donuts With Dads<div>
Yesterday was a professional development day for the teachers in our district. My sister and I taught something 'google-y' as we tend to like to do. It's fun and usually well-received by our peers. It's practical information that I pray teachers will use as soon as today when they get back to class. Some of these type of days are spent by teachers grumbling about needing to do any type of continuing education. I agree we have had some dud days but I appreciated the choices we had yesterday.</div>
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Since losing Shane, I have had at least one student (this year two) gifted to me who have lost a parent. I say gifted, because that is the way I feel about every child who is in my class. They are a gift and they are there for a reason. Because of this and obvious other reasons, I chose a class about grief. I remember the first year after loss that I had a grieving student who was pushing every limit. Late to class, not doing work...brilliant little guy, but he was using his loss as an excuse. I took him in the hallway and had a little tough love conversation with him. I reminded him that I had dropped off 3 boys just like him that morning who I expected to be sad at times but never disrespectful of the rules. That it would eventually make more worry for his mother if he didn't straighten up. I remember crying with him and telling him I understood, but to a point. I wanted so badly to know that I had said all of the right things. I called his mom and told her about our conversation and she was grateful and told me that sometimes it takes someone else telling him. </div>
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I agree with that! Tate would not eat and I called in reinforcements. A hip, amazing young dietician who was also a lover of running. She gave him the same calories in/calories out talk that I had, but he is still abiding by her advice today! Lane thought a rule was far-fetched and it took Uncle Robb and Chris to help him see the light. Sometimes one parent gets to play off the other in the whole good cop/bad cop scenario. Well, when there is only one you just need to have backup. These are the same two men who coincidentally had to be called off duty when another parent questioned my parenting decisions. They’ve definitely got my back! Just like Shane would’ve expected them to! </div>
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I wanted this class to help me see a different side of these few kids a year that I have. I am so close to this at home and often worry about what my boys look like in a classroom setting. Are they focused? Are their thoughts drifting? Do they feel scared, helpless, alone? I am basically just naming off all of my own daily feelings here. They can be miserable.</div>
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Here are my take-aways, and they apply to anyone who desires to better understand a friend or family member grieving:</div>
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<li>1 in 20 children will deal with a death loss by age 7, many more are dealing with a life loss. There is a difference. </li>
<li>Life loss is when their mom/dad might be out there but chooses a different life. I find this very sad and whole other blog post. This was me growing up...do they love you? Why are they choosing another family? </li>
<li>Children dealing with loss of a parent do not trust everyone around them to still be there in the future. That could be said for anyone, but can you imagine their uncertainty.</li>
<li>Kids tend to grieve in bursts. Don't be surprised if they are ready to face the world moments after an outcry. </li>
<li>Children of loss deal with new aspects developmentally. For example, a 3 year old who loses a parent may ask the living parent DAILY where that person is. When that same child is 5 or 6, it becomes concrete that they are not coming back. When they are 10, they learn there is bad and evil in the world and they may suffer all over again with other worries associated with death. Coincidentally, this is where I am with Wyatt. Bad dreams, locking the doors excessively...I mean, who wasn't afraid to take the trash out in the dark at some point in your childhood. It is all normal, but may be escalated for these kiddos. </li>
<li>They could relive the death at every major life event. Wishing they were there for all of the big moments. The big game...the concert. What is graduation going to feel like? Leaving for college?</li>
<li>Important for everyone to know: Not one single thing you do or say will take away someone's grief experience. Just sit with them, don't tell them 'it will be ok' or other ridiculous things we all say because to them it just won't, and just be still. Help them normalize their feelings so they don't think they are going crazy. </li>
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The reason for the title of this post is that Donuts with Dads came up...why do we do these types of things? Well, because the majority of the population can enjoy it while others are forced to face their grief head-on. Rewind to my first DWD experience as an elementary teacher and you will know that I have been bitter about it from day one. We had a student whose father didn't show. They were supposed to meet them there. It was a day ruined for this child. They will likely never forget it. The counselor yesterday explained that we can't shield them from every hurt and if it gives them a chance to unpack some feelings, then so be it. I agree. I can't believe I am agreeing but I do.</div>
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It's the everyday sting that I wish would go away. My boys have had things bother them that I wouldn't have dreamed would but each time it's been a chance to talk. To cry. To let it out! I didn't even make it through senior night at the football game for thinking about next year for Tate. I'm going to require some mighty prayer warriors for all of these life events!</div>
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Something I am very grateful for is Wyatt's lunch bunch. He participates in this at school with his counselor and other children dealing with a loss of any kind. What I believe is the key is this, they just eat lunch. They play and act silly. They visit about nothing in particular, but they start each time with their club rules and the one that sticks with Wyatt:<br />
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jjofarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04983309138069771662noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22254878.post-91397311298463607172018-08-02T07:06:00.000-05:002018-08-02T07:25:55.974-05:00The Navigation of Grief<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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So many things come to mind when someone asks me how my summer is going. I want to say it's good. We have spent some time relaxing, which we actually stink at, and some time doing our normal summer 'list of things you can't get accomplished during the school year'. I also want to say that it has been enlightening. My boys are growing up. I am their cruise director, their camp counselor, their principal, their mechanic, and sometimes we are friends. There is an important balance there with teens and a 10 year old. They are amazing humans and they are my purpose. They are learning to live again with no reservation and they are reaching high for goals that even the most traditional of family units would think were lofty. They complete me.<br />
I have had a few things on my mind. The unthinkable happened and another precious man left the Earth too soon. This is the second of Tate's teammates who has lost their dad since we lost Shane. I had the pleasure of teaching 2/3 of this sweet man's children and getting to visit occasionally with he and his wife at soccer games. He was like this rare jewel full of compliments toward his children's teachers and coaches. Always put a smile on my face. After attending the service with my oldest, and standing off to the side with him when it was over, I realized what he was doing. He was watching his teammate and just waiting. Waiting to see if he would need him. When the crowd began to clear, I could see his friend slowly eyeing Tate to make sure he was still there. There were no words exchanged until he waded through the last few people and just came to Tate and gave him a hug and then it was time to go. It was a long time. Longer than I know my son realized. So long, that the funeral director who is a friend of mine and the same person who handled Shane's service, came and whispered, 'you know it's over, right?' He's a joker. You would somewhat have to be in that business.<br />
I have since reached out to the grieving widow. I have been able to help with things that other people would not talk about over coffee. Death certificates, etc. It has been both therapeutic and awful. It was the moment that I told her that nothing would seem strange to me if it helped her to heal, that I knew I was healing as well. You want to go sleep by your man at the cemetery? I will bring the blankets and stand watch. You want to scream and cry and tell me it's not fair? I will agree and bring you some boxing gloves. You want to relive your first date? I will set the table. You want to type a blog post at 5am in his softest, most favorite green t-shirt that has been cried into many, many times when you can't sleep? Let's do this! Most importantly, I will pray for your family. Every single day.<br />
Tate added the song that they played at the service to one of our playlists. I listen to it every time I go for a walk and pray. Often times through tears, I ask the Lord to protect that family as he has my own. To surround them with people who truly care and have no expectations for their process. To allow them to embrace life in a way that their man would have wanted them to. I usually realize that my prayers are for my family as well. We don't know how to celebrate anymore. We struggle through birthdays and some holidays. Everything could just be so much funnier, happier, sillier, more carefree...if he were here. Games would be more exciting, trophies and medals more appreciated. Easier. Yes, easier for me and for my boys. Sunsets would be more beautiful, flowers would smell better...you get my point?! We are still learning.<br />
Part of my learning to cope has been to write when my thoughts get too loud. I was gifted a new traveler's notebook from my school this last year as my Teacher of the Year gift. Some people choose jewelry, and I chose more school supplies. Ha! I'm super fancy like that. I kid...it is deliciously leather and beautiful! I am in love with the way it opens and the paper inside. I am a total nerd and proud. It has helped me through some rough times to write with a purpose. To list troubles and then see just how troublesome they are once written. Most of the time, they are minor. If something that seems so small can help me, maybe it can help you too. I have also tried to take opportunities as they come to me with my friends. I went to a Christmas party this year for the first time in probably 5 years. Yes, I had 4 events in a row this week on my 'social' calendar. I only made one of them and I was late, but hey, I went to one! I didn't skip because I wanted to, it took two other adults for me to make the one that I did. Three kids in sports is no joke, and I would rather be with them. Someone said that you only get 18 summers with your kids, so make them count! ugh! Sad!<br />
Part of navigating grief is to make some split second decisions that you would never think were important before this journey. Things that seem simple to some people. Introductions. The one event I made it to this week was our new Book Club!! Super fun and right up nerd alley for me. An exciting new tribe of readers!! But how do I introduce myself to a group of ladies, half of whom I do not yet know? Is it better to say: Hi, I'm Jen. I have 3 fabulous boys, I lost my husband suddenly 3 years ago, I enjoy gardening and decoupage, travel and long walks. OR Hi, I'm Jen and I have 3 fabulous boys who are the light of my life and now let me ramble on about how amazing they are because I am super good at that!<br />
I chose option 2. The trouble with that option is that at our next meeting, someone will casually ask where my husband works or something equivalent. I will then have to make them feel uncomfortable by saying that he passed away. There will then be the side eyes as that person tells her friend who she is closest to and so on so that they won't be in her same position. It is all very understandable, yet I am unsure which is worse for those around me.<br />
There are problems with option 1 as well. Talk about putting a damper on the evening. Some people just can't. It basically negates anything that anyone else says in an introduction. It's oddly show stopping. I just can't.<br />
This is not reserved for only book clubs. This is every new season of sports, every new school year and new teachers, every new class that I teach, every new friend that I make. I am happy to say that I did fill out some forms recently without tears. I can now check boxes and complete enrollments without breaking down. I almost have talking about it down with my students. Seventh graders want to know your life story, so it's going to come up!<br />
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I want to make it a meaningful topic and that's hard to do on the spot. So maybe introductions come with time as well? For now, I will just do my best with making that choice on the spot and depending on the circumstance. I will keep journaling and keep praying! I read a book this summer by Rachel Hollis and my take away from her is that you can only really control two things: Your attitude and Your effort. So I will continue to try and keep both of those things positive and centered in Christ.<br />
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I can't even begin to express what Father's Day has always done to my heart. Since I was 9, my dad was not in my life on a day to day basis. We spent one very special Father's Day with him when all 4 of us 'originals' were adults and his wife had sent him here for a visit. I will never forget that whole weekend. Shane was filling in for the 9:45 worship leader at Rejoice, and my very own dad was going to get to see my husband lead worship. I didn't care what the circumstances were that brought him there away from his family, but I knew it was something very special that may never happen again...and it hasn't since. </div>
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Fast forward to about a month after Shane passed and we were all seeking counseling. Mine suggested that we do not go out to eat, go to the store, go to the golf course, go to the movie theater...basically stay home or take a long drive to nowhere on that coming Father's Day. She explained that we would be surrounded by people celebrating their dads. She explained that we wouldn't know how to celebrate just yet. She was right.</div>
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We still don't. We honestly haven't celebrated many things well since. We still haven't had a birthday party for Wyatt this year. We have decided that we try and celebrate each day as it comes. We celebrate being as happy as we can be. Being as productive as the day allows. Living our best lives. I think Shane is honored by this. </div>
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You see, with the beauty of those around us, we see fathers in action. Dads who tirelessly coach and take an interest in my boys. Male teachers who are not just role models but have gone the extra mile to help mold my boys into men. Dads who will help me with things around the house that are beyond my ability. Men that I know I can call and they will get my boys on the phone or text and set them straight about a question they might have or a nudge to take care of themselves when I feel they are overdoing it. </div>
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My boys may never learn to love Father's Day until they, themselves, become a father. They had the absolute best example for a short time. A selfless encourager and a diehard fan, Shane would have gone to battle for them or any of their friends or teammates. He patiently calmed nerves that he never understood. He wiped many tears, gave lots of good advice, answered any and all questions, and he had just the right amount of tough love while being incredibly tenderhearted. He taught them that they should recognize a God given gift and share it. He taught them to always be honest. He taught them to love their wife and put themselves last. He taught them to welcome challenges and accept defeat. He worked hard for them and never liked telling them no. He loved them so BIG! </div>
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So, thank you to all of the men who have invested in my boys. May God richly bless you and your heart for others. We can certainly never repay all of the kindness that we have received. </div>
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Here it is, my view on Mother's Day morning. I am having my coffee and sobbing. I can't quit. This day tears me up every year. Since becoming a mother, it always has. It has nothing to do with my own mother. She is great and deserves a parade in her honor. She single-handedly raised 4 kids who are now successful adults. We used to even celebrate her on Father's Day. She was just that good! A survival parenting style that left us all tougher around the edges than we may even need to be. We will celebrate her today!<br />
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This day is heart wrenching now because I can't go to church and lean into my husband's strong shoulder and cry while we worship. I can, on the other hand, have my coffee and stare at the very gift he gave me when Tate wasn't quite one. My first year as a mother on Mother's Day, he gave me this birdbath. I will cherish it forever.<br />
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Why all the tears? I am a blessed momma of 3 magnificent beings. Three boys who would do anything for me. Three boys who are respectful and kind, who I now lean on for strength, and who I pray over and ask for guidance to try and make them the best they can be.<br />
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I cry for my friend who never knew his mom as anything but an addict. For my friend's girls who are without her today because she took her own life. For the teenage mom we know who wasn't sure what to do and gave her baby up for a better life for the child. I weep for my friend who lost her mom to cancer and my other friend whose mom is losing her battle now. For the mom and dad who made the decision to donate their dying child's organs for another family to have life. For all of the confused students I have had over the years that haven't known the kind of mother that I feel they should. For my own stepmom, my dad's third wife, who has kept my dad sober for decades, and for my half siblings who I wish I could see more often.<br />
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When Shane and I told his dad and his dad's wife that we were expecting, we were so very excited to take them to dinner and let them know. They were not outwardly excited and we later found out that it was because they were trying to conceive and had bad news along the way. A baby lost. We had no idea. They then had success and my sweet brother-in-law was born just 4 months after Tate. Motherhood is a battle that some have to fight harder to be a part of than others. It's a miracle.<br />
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My sister was pregnant when I was expecting Wyatt. We were going to have babies at the same time!!! She lost her babies, four in total. Why is this even a thing? Why are mothers teased in this way? Why is it that my brother and I are blessed with these perfect babies and our two sisters can't have that same maternal gift? I have a lot of questions surrounding this, and then I am reminded how much bigger God is than any of my questions.<br />
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My oldest sister told me once about a year after we lost Shane that she was at peace with no longer putting her body through the abuse of trying to conceive. She felt at peace that God had given her so many jobs here. First, her stepchildren. She is their S'mommy and has done a darn good job of raising them as her very own. They are adults now and she felt that God knew I would need her. She is my extra set of wheels to deliver children, my extra set of brains when mine is in a fog of grief, and my extra set of ears when the boys seem down or when I need to vent. She rescues me. Often! And, selfless is her middle name.<br />
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I feel for my own mother-in-law who wishes to get one more hug from her son today. One more teasing remark about how she would like him to help her do some 'moving things around' for Mother's Day. I remember one year she wanted a bench for her backyard. We spent hours at the statuary place in Skiatook with her. Trying to be patient as she didn't just pick out a bench, but many other very heavy items that he delivered back to her house and set up for her. LOL!! I can just hear his choice words now...but he would have done it again and again.<br />
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So, can we just celebrate this as a beautiful Sunday? Another day that the Lord has made for us to enjoy. That's what we will do! Moms, Stepmoms, Girlfriends helping raise little ones, Dads doing mom jobs, ex-wives, new wives, aunts, uncles, moms and grandmas in Heaven, teachers influencing and loving on kids who don't feel that love at home, pastors who are trying to say the right things this morning, moms with graduates, perfectly traditional family units, moms with military children, moms of fur babies, dads who stepped up for someone else's children, coaches who love kids unconditionally, neighbors who bless others...have the best day you can!! Enjoy the blessings from every angle! Embrace your family tree, flow chart, bullet point list, or multilevel pyramid that may at times seems like a scam. Own your dysfunction. Love on those God gave you and those he took too soon. Happy Mother's Day, and all that that implies.<br />
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<li>anniversaries, at least 30 or so</li>
<li>birthday parties planned and executed with probably more flair than necessary</li>
<li>friends over for dinner and fishing</li>
<li>fight nights where the girls never even know the fight is on</li>
<li>date nights to buy every Christmas gift on the list in one night</li>
<li>being teased about basically everything</li>
<li>vacations...lots more</li>
<li>problems solved together</li>
<li>advice given to our boys that only a dad can deliver with such certainty </li>
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<li>plans for retirement RVing to every Bluegrass festival we could find</li>
<li>teams to coach</li>
<li>boats to captain</li>
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<li>conversations about our work days over an early dinner before leaving for practices</li>
<li>weddings to attend where he was singing</li>
<li>ballgames where we sat apart because of his 'passion'</li>
<li>plans to be the coolest grandparents some day</li>
<li>plans to never be apart so our kids wouldn't have to know what that feels like</li>
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Man, what I wouldn't give for more...</div>
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<li>laughs</li>
<li>inside jokes</li>
<li>looks</li>
<li>trips around the dance floor</li>
<li>memories</li>
<li>hugs...bear hugs</li>
<li>encouragement</li>
<li>unconditional love</li>
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Three years gone is too long to still have a lifetime of unfulfilled plans. Contentment is a hard concept when you lose someone. I am always praying this over my boys. For them to find peace. I don't allow myself to go through this list often, but I did write it down and it basically sums up a tiny fraction of what I am missing without him. I could probably add details daily.<br />
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Three was our signature number. We dated 3 times, therefore chose June 3rd as our wedding date, and we went on to have 3 boys basically 3 years apart...Wyatt being a bit of surprise. So, I think I knew that this year's date would be hard. I have come farther than to try and think it isn't my life now. It is. But I will allow myself to wish for things today that I do not have. I don't feel like this makes me a bitter person. I am not. I have accepted that it makes me normal. I am human. I can occasionally yell, "This is NOT FAIR!" because, frankly, it isn't. I just can't stay there. I am living daily under the protection of my Savior. There is no other explanation for how we get from point A to point B.<br />
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I couldn't be more proud of my boys and who they are becoming. Tate had an assignment in his psychology class and he text me to ask what was a stressful event for him in the last few months. Neither of us could think of anything. We were naming the most random things that to some people would have seemed huge. I text him back and said...I think our definition of stress is so different than some people's. His words were, "I know mom, everything seems minor." I am sorry they know this truth due to something so unthinkable, but I am glad they are warriors. They make me stronger.<br />
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God's got this! <span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; display: inline; float: none; font-family: "times new roman"; font-size: 16px; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; letter-spacing: normal; text-align: left; text-decoration: none; text-indent: 0px; text-transform: none; white-space: normal; word-spacing: 0px;">The THIRD chapter of Ephesians even says that God has more in store for us than we can even imagine. Thank you for your promises! They cover and carry me.</span></div>
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3 - That is the number of days that my boys had insurance after my husband suddenly passed away on April 27, 2015. His gracious company wanted so badly to extend the time but he was ‘no longer employed’ through them, so by law...they couldn’t. They verbally committed to helping me if any need for healthcare should arise until I could get it handled. Get it handled? I was handling a lot of things I didn’t want to be handling. When I called Mrs. Carpenter at the Administration building to discuss my options, there were none I could afford. She very gently and sweetly told me to consider SoonerCare for my boys. My first reaction was, “WHAT? No! I am an educated woman with a career. I should be able to take care of my children’s insurance needs.”
$8,000.00 - That was the amount of usable, bring home income that I would be lacking every month without him. Yes, he had worked his whole life from 14 to 41, so the boys would be getting some death benefits through Social Security. However, those weren’t enough to get the insurance. Those are barely enough combined with my teaching salary to feed everyone, maintain their activities, and carry on their life somewhat as they once knew it.
SoonerCare - It has been a blessing and a curse. I remember sending my boys back to school just a week after losing Shane and feeling a real urgency to stay close to their buildings that day in case they needed me. I hid in my sister’s office at the Seventh Grade Center and she and I literally prayed over her computer as I hit submit on the SoonerCare forms online. I cried tears of joy when it said they were approved. I cried out of shock that it was that easy to prove my case for assistance. I printed their temporary insurance cards and began a life of assumptions at the doctors, pharmacies, dentist, and optometrist. Once, when checking in at the doctor, the receptionist said snidely about some needed paperwork, “Oooooh, you’re on SoonerCare.” I had frankly had enough of the shameful comments and haughty glares and plainly told her that, yes, because my husband is dead and I’m a public school teacher.
You see, what I really wanted to say was...Yes, I have government assisted healthcare for my children because my children mean more to me than my pride. Yes, I have a career and a 4 year plus degree. Yes, I wish my profession thought enough of my family to offer better pay and better insurance options. And no, I am not working the system. Every year when I reapply, and I get approval, that will continue to be a blessing until it’s not. Then, I will seek counsel and possibly look to another state or industry for work. My boys have had enough change to deal with in one lifetime, so I would like to avoid this option. <span style="background-color: white; color: #444444; font-family: "arial"; white-space: pre;"> </span><span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif; white-space: pre-wrap;">Financial security can be a very taxing reality once it is gone.</span><span style="font-family: "arial"; white-space: pre-wrap;"> </span><br />
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jjofarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04983309138069771662noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22254878.post-23536662927182045542018-01-31T05:55:00.002-06:002018-01-31T09:41:41.939-06:00Do you want to punch me?<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: "verdana";">My sister, Ashley, often asks me this very questions. Like multiple times a week. Here's when:</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "verdana" , sans-serif;">I could do this all day, but I won't because Dolly said it best right after this scene...LAUGHTER THROUGH TEARS IS MY FAVORITE EMOTION. My sister knows how to break it down for me every time. Have I ever punched her? No, but she would take it! We are in a lifelong recovery process that I know gets easier every day...then some days you feel like you took a giant leap back too many steps. We know our way around things now that trigger tough emotions, but it's the sneak attacks that are so hard. My desire is to see the good in every season. To seek and find favor in the Lord's provisions. He is so faithful! To allow my boys to grieve naturally, and that it's perfectly healthy for them to see me struggle. I can't tell you how true this clip is for me. I have the GREATEST group of girlfriends anyone could ever ask for! They would each let me punch them square in the jaw if I needed to and I can think of some men who would allow it as well! Thank you from the bottom of my broken heart for seeing the needs when they arise and being willing to be there in a moment's notice. My village is strong and mighty! We are blessed because of it!</span></div>
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jjofarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04983309138069771662noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22254878.post-68599658290458552152017-11-27T05:35:00.000-06:002017-11-27T05:57:41.565-06:00Sissy, no Bud...Monica, no Chandler...<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhNPVEBFBpYLYsg0p6HXa1b89mqScBxDil5kAHeAkDAqMg6-sFbwvD-E80PNNhaHdiL0aPsi6SH6noUgIuE2II81K7kke3WwnN6GCOumRO-KUQZWLQ5jYkE4uo2Xd2PfhmxBxSF4A/s1600/mary+nativity.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1200" data-original-width="1600" height="300" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhNPVEBFBpYLYsg0p6HXa1b89mqScBxDil5kAHeAkDAqMg6-sFbwvD-E80PNNhaHdiL0aPsi6SH6noUgIuE2II81K7kke3WwnN6GCOumRO-KUQZWLQ5jYkE4uo2Xd2PfhmxBxSF4A/s400/mary+nativity.jpg" width="400" /></a><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">Here we are, year <b>three</b> of Christmas decorating...Joseph is still MIA. When we unpacked our Christmas tubs after moving to our new home, the boys and I went on a man hunt. We had not touched this Christmas gear since that last December in Skiatook. Why was he gone? Ironically, we had been asking ourselves this since April when we lost our main man. Now Mary is without, and life continues to be severely unfair.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">I recently decided that I was going to try and stop the spiraling thoughts that happen to me almost daily. I have asked the Lord to rebuke, remove, relieve, and denounce all of these irrational flashes from my very loud mind. This tends to happen about 2 or 3 a.m. If I listed all of my worries anywhere but in my own journal, I would likely be committed. Maybe we all would? I recently read John Green's new book. Much like every book I seem to choose for pleasure, there are not one but two characters who have lost a parent. The young girl's father passed suddenly, her widowed mother is a teacher at her school (insert eye roll, head shake, or sweet warm fuzzy, you choose). This young lady has obsessive thoughts. He is such a genius writer. He quotes the greats at just the right times in a novel. </span><br />
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<span style="color: black; font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">I am slowly coming to grips with this. It does go on. It might be without Joseph, but <b>it's not without Jesus</b>. Wyatt loves to unpack baby Jesus. One year, he had been in a slight bit of trouble and I saw him talking with baby Jesus at the Nativity about it. Precious! If we all could do the same. I find myself seeking His face more often than not. I need to see you in my life. I need a sign. A tangible reminder that there is more than worry here on Earth. I ask forgiveness for my selfish anxiety, but now realize that my body has had a real reaction to it's current situation. My children are in the same boat. One more than the others. It is heart wrenching as a parent to not be able to fix it. You want nothing more to help them turn off their thoughts for just even a moment. Anxiety is a real demon and if you suffer, you are by no means alone. </span></div>
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jjofarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04983309138069771662noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22254878.post-87314873875714603262017-08-23T22:57:00.000-05:002017-08-23T22:57:15.789-05:00Not Every Day is Pretty<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I was recently reminded that I can't do it all. Who am I kidding...I get this reminder daily, but this was a biggy. Both of my older boys were sort of over me trying to just get them to shave with the electric neck trimmer that we use in between haircuts. They really needed to start the year with a fresh, real SHAVE. What's a mom to do? <br />
I could have youtubed it, much like when we were trying to tie a bowtie for my niece's wedding but this was stressing me out just a little. I kept putting it off all summer and with just one day to spare, we had our shave lesson...compliments of Shane's best friend, Chris. <br />
Much like he is with kids on the soccer or football field, he was patient and kind with just the right amount of 'just do it, you wussy'. I am not so sure that this wasn't a moment that Shane took over his vocabulary, but I am always mindful that they were around each other so much that they shared the same harassment tendencies. <br />
Wyatt looked on with wonder. Lane kept a safe distance, but I could tell he was taking mental notes. Yes, he is a man child. A new 13 year old with more facial hair than his big brother. They have both had successful solo shaves and we are practically packing for college. It's a lot to take in.<br />
After a week of school, I am finally writing about this because I have not looked at this picture without weeping since it happened. Shane should just be here. I know it's unfair for me to say that out loud, but it's the way I feel all of the time. The fact is, he's not. We are still learning to deal with that reality. <br />
With each new school year, I feel more and more like I am on an island. I don't fit a lot of categories anymore. It's hard to have conversations with my married friends about the day to day and I certainly don't consider myself a single. I have a hard time feeling sorry for people who consider themselves to be sooooo busy, and my compassion for every day complaints is very minimal. The only things I know are these:<br />
I will continue to strive to be better, not bitter.<br />
I love my job.<br />
I care deeply for the students that God places in my care each year.<br />
God is in control and I am not.<br />
Some days are pretty good.<br />
Some days are still not pretty at all.<br />
I am in love with my boys and have no idea what I did to deserve them.<br />
My heart aches for moments when he should be here for them.<br />
I am and will always be eternally grateful for my true friends, coworkers, the boys' coaches and teachers, and for my family.<br />
God doesn't expect us to put a nice face on an ugly thing, so I will work to continue to be honest in my feelings and keep living under His protection. Psalms 91:4 <br />
Happy Shaving!<br />
<br />jjofarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04983309138069771662noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22254878.post-3791369831275684432017-07-22T18:36:00.000-05:002017-07-22T18:36:40.931-05:00The Eyes Have It<b style="font-weight: normal;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">When he coached his very first team as a dad, a soccer team no doubt, we realized what came to be a very comical thing about those eyes. After a long season of youtube tutorials and online soccer drill ideas, the football/baseball star was the Pirates biggest fan and best leader. He had never played the sport that would become his oldest son’s passion and reason for getting up every morning. The end of season party is one that we still talk about today. Shane leaned over to ask a little boy if he would like some ketchup on that victory hotdog he was about to consume and the sweet thing looked over his shoulder to see just exactly who coach was talking to. Shane had a lazy eye.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">He became quite accustomed to the jokes that followed. Most of the time, he made fun of himself. My brother liked to remind him that there is ‘no lazy eye in team’. He would often make fun of the fact that he had been talking to someone and they didn’t respond, saying, ‘They didn’t know who the hell I was talking to.’ Our life was full of laughter and I know my kids learned that it is ok to laugh at your own shortcomings, but to love yourself all the same.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">It was just two weeks after his passing that we got a letter from Life Share stating that not just one, but two people had regained their sight with the help of Shane’s corneas. I will never forget sitting in my driveway going through the mail and reading this. The boys had already gone in the house and I sat in my car, having hardly cracked a smile in weeks, and laughed until I cried. I then cried because I had laughed. The kind of emotional roller coaster that was best portrayed by the cast of Steel Magnolias post funeral (another reason I knew I was supposed to marry Shane...his favorite movie). I was so overwhelmed with the fact that this had brought me nothing but joy that I had instant guilt, then realized that I would never see that green-eyed smile again in this lifetime, then started laughing all over again because of the irony of the eyes.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: transparent; color: black; font-family: Arial; font-size: 11pt; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: 400; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: baseline;">I have just today had the pleasure of hugging a daddy’s neck who just lost his daughter. She has saved 5 lives so far through organ and tissue donations. While he cried, he told us just how excruciating this process has been and the varied emotions he has felt as the doctors planned and pieced his daughter’s blessings to those who will continue to live because of her. He spoke of the private jet and limo rides for the families. He spoke of the babies, teenagers, and children who will no longer suffer because of her and how he had no doubt that they were getting the best and the strongest that this world has to offer. He was running right toward the roar today, as Levi Lusko speaks about in his book, ‘Through the Eyes of a Lion’. Cueing the Eagle just like in Isaiah 40:31. </span></div>
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<b></b><i></i><u></u><sub></sub><sup></sup><strike></strike><br />jjofarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04983309138069771662noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22254878.post-36057197393296557192015-07-06T07:07:00.001-05:002015-07-06T07:07:48.403-05:00Dear Lady at Walmart,I'm not sure I would consider you a friend. I may have shared a sideline with you once in a blue moon...on one team...6 years ago...when they didn't even keep score. Not that I am so competitive a person that the score matters, it's just a timeline reminder that you and I both have probably come a LONG way since. <br />
If we talked on a daily basis, I may not have thought your line of questioning was rude. I may not have made a beeline to the other side of the giant store to avoid you or anyone remotely close to your demeanor. I may not have contemplated leaving my basket full of items and running for the hills. I was forced to stick it out with my sweet Wyatt and meander through the garden center...sweating and crying. My first trip to the store 'since' was becoming a joke...a bust.<br />
You see, my amazing, handsome, strong, loving, hilarious husband left this world April 27, 2015. He was not supposed to go so soon. My boys and I were not ready for him to leave. We have a lot of plans to fulfill...a lot. <br />
Oh, so you say you 'heard that we HAD to move?' Well, no. We didn't <em>have</em> to move. We chose to move from our 6 acres that we had just purchased not even 2 years prior. Many people and experts say not to make such changes so suddenly, but when you watch your dear boys not be able to go into the room where daddy fell down and couldn't wake back up you tend to consider it. When you have sat up on the couch one too many nights in a row just hoping that their brains are resting and not reliving the Monday over and over. I actually knew we could make it there, but honestly wanted a more manageable existence. We all 4 went and sat in my bedroom floor, right where it happened and prayed. We thanked Jesus for taking good care of daddy now. We prayed that our decision to sell was not about being scared, but about being smart. The first time that a volunteer didn't make their assigned mowing date and the grass was a little harrier than Shane or I would have liked it, I jumped on the tractor between school and practices and tried to knock out as much as I could. It was an emotional ride. Something that used to be my 'summer job' as Shane would jokingly say. Me and my headphones and my Colbie Caillat Pandora station would have normally been a joy, was a chore. A teary, miserable reminder that he was gone and certainly not going to be sweeping in behind me with the weed eater to do the part of my summer job that I hated, all the while he would be teasing me from the ditch that I wasn't going to be on the American Idol tour any time soon. No, we didn't HAVE to move. <br />
You asked 'So where did you HAVE to go?' Well, since you asked like that I will tell you that not all widows are destitute, dumb, mindless, sewer dwellers who no longer seek what is best for their children. We didn't settle for a one bedroom apartment so that I didn't have to mow. We searched and found the greatest house that not only the boys would be proud of, but Shane would have totally lived here. He would not have loved the closeness of the neighbors, the 4th of July bicycle parade would have cracked him up, but I am CERTAIN he loves it for us! He has always been a tad bossy and such a leader. I have said more than once and completely believe that he is putting his two sense in to the man upstairs. Our home where we fully intended to host our grandchildren's summer camps sold in just 3 days. Multiple full price offers. Done. Sold. It had stayed on the market almost 2 years when we purchased it. Thank you, Jesus, for taking care of my sweet family. May the owners of that property enjoy the pond, the newly built barn where our middle son was going to raise baby lambs with my husband's help, where our oldest played on his own full-sized soccer field, and where our youngest learned a between the legs dribble on his own NBA court. When we prayed in our bedroom floor, my oldest asked that the new owners would know the love that was there. I will probably never remember that without crying. That is exactly what I want them to remember about that home. So, where did we<em> have </em>to go. Again, we didn't have to, but we chose to go somewhere manageable and safe. Somewhere that new memories could be made and the yard could get mowed. Co-dependent living is not something my husband would be proud of for us. He would be proud that I have accepted the help that I have, but I can mow my own yard. He would bear hug all of his buddies who have supported us and helped us move. <br />
'So, like WHAT happened to him?' you so rudely continue to ask these pointed questions while cornering me on the chip aisle. We suspect he had a heart attack. 'What? You don't KNOW?' No, we don't. He was 41. He was diabetic. He chewed tobacco. He didn't always eat right. He exercised somewhat irregularly. He worked is tail end off for his family. He was probably too stressed. He coached a sport every season. He may not have had enough down time. He loved without ceasing. He made crude jokes. He popped me with towels in the kitchen. He teased his boys about girls and zits. He was a musician. He probably didn't get to play enough. He was the master of math homework. He drank beer on occasion. We traditionally both drank one when we grilled burgers on the back patio. He liked to play golf. He liked to watch college football, college softball, well...basically any sport. He loved his job. He was ornery. He was loved by everyone he met...even if he kept them guessing. He loved to go hunting with his work buddies. He loved a good surprise, even though he would tell you he didn't. He gave the best hugs. He loved me more than I have ever been loved. He always knew what to say to the boys. He was a born coach and encourager for kids. He loved his momma. He loved his daddy. His grandpa was his hero. He could roll with the punches. I could do this all day, but I didn't do this on the chip aisle. I had reached my limit with her in 3 questions. She wanted more, but I walked away. I hope she got the hint, but I am guessing not.<br />
I have always been 'too nice'. My husband handled all buffering of uncomfortable situations. He could shut down a bugger in one word, one look, one movement. He hated going to the store with me since I had lived and taught in this town my whole life. It was too much. I have learned a lot about myself in the last 11 weeks. I am stronger that I thought I was and with divine intervention all around us, we will make it. My boys and I will keep moving forward, riding the waves of grief one day at a time. We will honor our memories and pray that new ones will become sweet again. We are not there yet. All of the sweet memories include dad. Right now, it feels like we are just moving through the daily motions. Staying busy and relying on family and friends to remind us that we are making it. We will continue to make it and continue to strive to honor God in all things. I will just avoid the chip aisle at all cost. <br />
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<br />jjofarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04983309138069771662noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22254878.post-42637790974537349902011-08-01T08:05:00.006-05:002011-08-01T08:38:18.595-05:00<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEho0dJKNf_k97V5EA4mNooVorMPFouevYbvGiIrTxs1HCLF7ATQZwt4-meH-A6rnpa1B4o6D65_k18zZn-4rQfemUgd6nk50oLjf7eySZMw109U0ZvblBN4CCxBQKNrupEc9LYrIQ/s1600/memory+box.jpg"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 300px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5635877916392301986" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEho0dJKNf_k97V5EA4mNooVorMPFouevYbvGiIrTxs1HCLF7ATQZwt4-meH-A6rnpa1B4o6D65_k18zZn-4rQfemUgd6nk50oLjf7eySZMw109U0ZvblBN4CCxBQKNrupEc9LYrIQ/s400/memory+box.jpg" /></a> Keepsake box and burp cloths. Bought a plain wooden box and covered it in western paper and mod <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-error">podge</span>. used chipboard letters of his <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">initials</span> and some cute western <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_2" class="blsp-spelling-error">premade</span> wooden pieces at hobby lobby(67cents each) to cover the other squares. Made some monogrammed burp cloths to go with it. Adorable poem I found online about the keepsake box. Just google: baby keepsake box poem. Printed it, and placed it inside.<br /><br /><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgcYuZFo6aY4lJ3EHdc8u6tvkoYiLBwkGT1bXbuXvsFCdLNALebOEC-lFGAe9A2RHa13xBnWbVWTdfZCFdTaaDANOgBpiwz7LQjM3IKhp2Zs8UkHTWrCUSx-4K6OodD-FhvGu9u7g/s1600/mint+teacher+gift.jpg"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 400px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5635876523964216706" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgcYuZFo6aY4lJ3EHdc8u6tvkoYiLBwkGT1bXbuXvsFCdLNALebOEC-lFGAe9A2RHa13xBnWbVWTdfZCFdTaaDANOgBpiwz7LQjM3IKhp2Zs8UkHTWrCUSx-4K6OodD-FhvGu9u7g/s400/mint+teacher+gift.jpg" /></a> Not sure why my pic is not loading fully, but this was a teacher appreciation week gift that we made for all of the boys teachers. <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_3" class="blsp-spelling-error">TerraCotta</span> pot with a mint herb plant and cute stakes. Having boys is easy, but with girl it would be super fun to add some <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_4" class="blsp-spelling-error">blingy</span> touches. :) Paint the pot, make some stakes out of <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_5" class="blsp-spelling-error">cricut</span> or scrappy paper??</div><br /><br /><br /><div><br /><br /><br /><br /><div align="center"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjST7HzIF4gJZ_65kRuQ8bFDqxf5d8peqKorh3xFGnnv6uwSPSMKk39I-c6Axu6EglXu_CXnia_83OmPTNHpQHFv_PdT_zE-zFseNQ9t96HC_nlnoNjKboBgoauTEbDu1mW_bbVLg/s1600/evan.jpg"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 400px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5635875753702662386" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjST7HzIF4gJZ_65kRuQ8bFDqxf5d8peqKorh3xFGnnv6uwSPSMKk39I-c6Axu6EglXu_CXnia_83OmPTNHpQHFv_PdT_zE-zFseNQ9t96HC_nlnoNjKboBgoauTEbDu1mW_bbVLg/s400/evan.jpg" /></a> Made this banner from <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_6" class="blsp-spelling-error">pre</span>-cut pennants at hobby lobby. Mod <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_7" class="blsp-spelling-error">podged</span> some cutie paper to them and made some fabric rosettes. Chipboard letters that I painted and glittered to match. Baby Evan is ADORABLE!! and they used this at her shower.<br /><br />I am new to <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_8" class="blsp-spelling-error">pinterest</span> and loving all of the wonderful ideas that I am finding there. I have discovered that in order to share an idea of your own, you need to blog about it first :) So, I am blogging away. School is about to begin again, and I will disappear from the world of fun and adventure the computer for a while.<br /></div><br /><div align="center">I.Love.My.Life. Just in case anyone was wondering!! We recently bought Lane a horse for his birthday and are boarding it in <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_9" class="blsp-spelling-error">Collinsville</span> at a beautiful farm. We are having some amazing family time caring for the horse and learning to ride, etc. together. Lane named her Layla. Tate made a competitive soccer club this summer and is in serious dedicated training mode. Running every other day and 'met <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_10" class="blsp-spelling-error">pukie</span>' at his first practice. It is 110+ degrees, so that is not helping! Wyatt is a nut! He is so much fun and I am going to dearly miss watching him sleep in the mornings and playing with him all day when school starts back.</div></div>jjofarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04983309138069771662noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22254878.post-90848638049223175362011-07-31T08:58:00.001-05:002011-07-31T09:00:23.908-05:00<div align="center">Pantry Painting...</div><br /><div align="center"></div><br /><div align="center">after a summer of heat and pinterest, i decided to chalkboard the inside of my pantry door. the boys love it!! super fun and i look forward to many inspiring quotes and motivation coming their way! :)</div><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj8yDdSQv_QxAjBbi-apezsXNs6PKwoM3ZrgY5PqMm-oKzqafH6AN3d0hMTDIwaWya8D-mi-bqwaAEbWea8cM5PcUsjRaG4UNKR6V2Em2Y0gZ024n6eBh5rlKrRW53wcTQfspXmBQ/s1600/pantry+paint.jpg"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 400px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5635515560724883906" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj8yDdSQv_QxAjBbi-apezsXNs6PKwoM3ZrgY5PqMm-oKzqafH6AN3d0hMTDIwaWya8D-mi-bqwaAEbWea8cM5PcUsjRaG4UNKR6V2Em2Y0gZ024n6eBh5rlKrRW53wcTQfspXmBQ/s400/pantry+paint.jpg" /></a><br /><br /><div></div>jjofarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04983309138069771662noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22254878.post-19131427958520683102010-02-19T05:46:00.007-06:002010-02-21T22:06:15.991-06:00<div align="center">playing blog catch up...<br /><br /><br />for all you single ladies out there :) or anyone who can appreciate an almost two year old dancing to the chipmunks!<br /><br /><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dxRSXh2UnxZUUUgcGNtBXsT0p8b0GDhWkLoZFWG-47NTOIAZxj9a6OhEVoX5IhDWdUdukjse85FtGQ' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe></div><div align="center"><br /><br /></div><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 300px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5439925436232080338" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiCuYFHmdWE88M4yBH0zTk8qcgHGr37xw94RN6-oOd6t0NqThzYEjEDlRSOcoNeV3yo2iVbqqKxwOKm3Tt-OlTuxZqzz8szfAhNEnAWucUoEi1SENBEJllg03-ER1gmqNEVHhzs6Q/s400/single+ladies+dance+off+018.JPG" /> <p align="center">posing after the dance party</p><p>wyatt's single ladies dance off...lane laughing so hard at him you can barely hear the song. these boys keep us rolling!! they are such good boys...all boy...but such good ones. </p><br /><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 300px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5439927572715634066" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjtvtK31Q0ZXZDY1W2a4b84q1SBXq-gBtYSHk6KIjzhjpLUQqGOk_U7DND3MoDWV-QGv3t7ci9K9BHXBw-kIg9RmxXVO2eNlQtdPZ6UTh6yi7vxTCN6Dncn09DYMhmAC5XaAHQ_ag/s400/colorado+%2709+068.JPG" /> <p align="center">tater in front of the Rockies stadium...can't wait for baseball season to start for this boy!<br /><br /></p><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 300px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5439927570519730818" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiVkpOA0N_srQgBN05ovDZa4fxsdzxxwp6GFBfuoAKRfIOvCp6GgUW8OEXnypAZpWzwec8VQ3iCL7Yr5o6VyBw98npdhNYF-i68sK_7Qzd8tLns1Y9lv6KJ1oPHrGaguUiIHuVZMQ/s400/colorado+%2709+054.JPG" />my sweet new nephew hudson.6 weeks early and still weighed 5lb6oz 19in...must be a farley boy<br /><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 300px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5439927577159999426" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhfsTv9zd5Z46ab4mR52qRefMQ74YeQVmWsOcug-tM6YPjxjKSlwgTcKmjj0oceKICETNiN_H-D-5qKPdwRZBX2n96nwfTHesB5lFhiueWpm2ay58dB-4d9tixGidFjaOwxekYmbQ/s400/colorado+%2709+083.JPG" /> <p align="center">my handsome men at our favorite denver mall, park meadows<br /><br /></p><p>ok, so i haven't posted since dec. pretty sad, but we have been a bit busy. we traveled to denver over christmas break to meet our new nephew hudson. he was 6 weeks early but is healthy and doing great! can't wait to see him again! we enjoyed our time away and it made me miss seeing those mountains every day.</p><br /><br /><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 400px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5439927588640629698" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi_41741CPfw4iP71eqaI8olaMatojl4iGE8shw3iNb6keVtFhCHTzietDdRhXVT2mq08NWH31y9phmlxeAMNDqnw7ceGlYV_LFm2OVcBuOeua-JTLP2LUgV1UIatOZlBw5F7cQNw/s400/christmas+09+200.JPG" /> <p align="center">little dub enjoying his first time to really get out and play in the OK snow.<br /><br /><br /><br /></p><p>upon our return, we had some more snow here and another ice dam on our roof. it has been 3 years since the last one and the roof endured the big ice storm of '07 and everything. the insurance literally said it is amazing that it happened again. the conditions and temperatures have to be just right for it to happen. the ice melts from the bottom first and the weight of the snow sends all of that water snaking under your shingles and into the tiniest corner to get in. ahhhh!!! we had just had some french doors and a passage door to the kitchen put on our office and made tate his own room...fun! lane was loving his new room. wyatt was about to graduate to his big boy bed. now, we are awaiting the contents of our garage to be removed to a storage container in our driveway for a week or so while they completely redo the garage ceiling, replace the pad and restretch and clean the carpets, repaint the laundry room, hall, and both little boys rooms. i am praising the Lord for insurance, helpful contractors, and patient children.</p><p>i feel so blessed with so many things in such a harsh economy, but teacher morale is a little low right now at my school. if you happen to be reading this...thank a teacher. yes, we get summers off, etc. etc. etc. :) but the current budget cuts are weighing heavily on everyone's minds at school. it is hard to stay positive. that is my goal. we are not in control. pray for good decisions to be made by administration. pray for peace in the minds of some teachers who are new. this is the most real this has ever been. </p><br /><p align="center"><span style="color:#ffff00;">A teacher affects eternity:he can never tell where his influence stops. - Henry Adams</span><br /><br /></p><p align="center"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 300px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5439925427622257650" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgsDdXIunggVUPXaJcfnx8HIUtvCCxx_tl47Ze2sbuLiVSMHNsZij4SitmKv85lgFW56LpfEhpuvHZRn7lUta2WMLBNbOkWPpB0KFFnyPH11vIbqsiADDMyVB_vPaH2nbBca9PYvw/s400/colorado+trip+christmas+09+043.JPG" />when you're five...there are not many things more fun than building whatever you want with a giant tub of legos :) </p><p align="center">i am blessed! i love my busy, crazy, livin' the minivan dream kind of life...thank you sweet Jesus for saving me, for providing, for caring, for loving, for protecting.</p><p><br /><br /><br /></p><p></p>jjofarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04983309138069771662noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22254878.post-80162385169947800632009-12-01T23:01:00.004-06:002009-12-02T06:54:57.338-06:00<strong>blessings all around...</strong><br />my dad, step-mom, 2 of their awesome children, and one of their friends came to town. my boys played and played and just knew they were in the presence of greatness. uncle jake is a college baseball player and tate could not leave to go meet up with them at my brother's until granny ran over his ball glove that he left at her house the day before. she was sweet to do it and later that night at home, i found a note he had written to himself about meeting uncle jake and maybe asking him to sign something. i will be keeping that sweet note. it was a great visit!!! my sis took some wonderful pictures of the whole lot of us, but there are a few here.<br /><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=910265&l=a749d145dd&id=1137661532">http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=910265&l=a749d145dd&id=1137661532</a><br /><br /><br />as a family, minus wyatt due to no strollers aloud, we completed the YMCA hog jog. i must say that amidst all my -itis's i felt better that day than i had in a long time. it was a true blessing and at every turn, there were these great little groups of encouragers. we ran ahead of a group and they were yelling...'go farley's' i seriously almost cried. for one fleeting moment, i felt like rocky balboa or something. a must keep tradition!!<br /><br />our next adventure for the weekend led us to a little town in NE OK who's name i won't mention for a gig that shane had gotten roped into. i don't normally feel like 'betty better than anyone' but i was a little scared there. i felt like shane needed some chicken wire up like on the blues brother's movie. luckily, my sister and her husband went with us and it served as great back up unless things got crazy but more importantly, we had some great laughs!! we may just laugh about that for years to come to keep from crying :) they were a very receptive crowd though...a few chords in to any hank jr. song and the whole place was howling!!! awesome!<br /><br />we have recently also adopted 'Tony' our new elf on the shelf. if you have small children, these little guys are precious!! since shane works in international shipping, Tony arrived from the north pole with daddy one night when he came home from work.<br /><br />if you don't already have it...might i recommend Jacob's Gift by Max Lucado. *tear* i love reading that to the boys this time of year!!!<br /><br />life is good! thank you sweet savior for all of the things i count as blessings that i know i don't deserve...there is none like You!jjofarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04983309138069771662noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22254878.post-36179434910305549342009-11-12T21:24:00.001-06:002009-11-12T21:24:00.927-06:00<img style="visibility:hidden;width:0px;height:0px;" border=0 width=0 height=0 src="http://counters.gigya.com/wildfire/IMP/CXNID=2000002.0NXC/bHQ9MTI1ODA4MjU3ODgxNyZwdD*xMjU4MDgyNjMzMDI3JnA9NDE4ODEzJmQ9MjAzNTAwJm49YmxvZ2dlciZnPTImbz1hNmRlYTViNTAyMDY*NmM*OGI*NjdjNDJlNDQxNTE3MyZvZj*w.gif" /><div style='background-color:#e9e9e9; width: 425px;'><object id='A364688' quality='high' data='http://aka.zero.jibjab.com/client/zero/ClientZero_EmbedViewer.swf?external_make_id=lsMGeBAKNPyzsxCz&service=elfyourself.jibjab.com&partnerID=ElfYourself' pluginspage='http://www.macromedia.com/go/getflashplayer' type='application/x-shockwave-flash' wmode='transparent' height='319' width='425'><param name='wmode' value='transparent'></param><param name='movie' value='http://aka.zero.jibjab.com/client/zero/ClientZero_EmbedViewer.swf?external_make_id=lsMGeBAKNPyzsxCz&service=elfyourself.jibjab.com&partnerID=ElfYourself'></param><param name='scaleMode' value='showAll'></param><param name='quality' value='high'></param><param name='allowNetworking' value='all'></param><param name='allowFullScreen' value='true' /><param name='FlashVars' value='external_make_id=lsMGeBAKNPyzsxCz&service=elfyourself.jibjab.com&partnerID=ElfYourself'></param><param name='allowScriptAccess' value='always'></param></object><div style='text-align:center; width:435px; margin-top:6px;'>Send your own <a href='http://www.elfyourself.com'>ElfYourself</a> <a href='http://sendables.jibjab.com/ecards'>eCards</a></div></div>jjofarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04983309138069771662noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22254878.post-67728951337373351302009-11-08T21:33:00.004-06:002009-11-09T06:36:52.645-06:00<div align="center"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgcR-_gJ3TBSbRAK_XCcP8H3T2CWI8i12qWfnrmKcsFEdKE8OkYD-8UrkhZZD9ndyQvT3Hq0EMnwAjjKwgTPfXpQaj8zFislt5K8z46wmn6NiDd8pcn7eaUi3oDUTAYpuEOE_nhrA/s1600-h/turkey+shootout+09+104.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5401945313144870402" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgcR-_gJ3TBSbRAK_XCcP8H3T2CWI8i12qWfnrmKcsFEdKE8OkYD-8UrkhZZD9ndyQvT3Hq0EMnwAjjKwgTPfXpQaj8zFislt5K8z46wmn6NiDd8pcn7eaUi3oDUTAYpuEOE_nhrA/s400/turkey+shootout+09+104.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><div><strong>an all about Lane weekend...</strong></div><br /><div>when you are in the middle of three boys, you sometimes just have to go with the flow. you are not the boss and you are not the baby. this weekend, our little lane was everything! he was happy, excited, silly, fun, an athlete, a good friend, a superstar to say the least. we left baby with granny and headed to 'the city' for the Turkey Shootout soccer tournament with the cutest bunch of 5 year olds around. they ate at Toby Keith's, they rode the bricktown canal, they had ice cream, snow cones, kettle corn, swam at the hotel, jumped on the beds...i could go on all night. lane scored 6 goals and played some killer defense. his team went on to win the tournament! 6 and under champs!!! they have basically dominated the regular season aside from one team who they really had some good competition with and ended up losing one game by one. we came to the tournament not knowing how they would hold up in a different town and knowing we have a pretty young team...all but one are 5. they won every game and the scores sound more like football scores. in the last game they needed 17 points to beat the points total of another team from another bracket that was their same age. they scored 22 points. go Pride!! that other team had allowed 17 goals all tournament and we only allowed 9, so i think it is fair to say that they ROCK!!!!! :) yes, i am a PROUD soccer mom! our friends from 'the city' came to watch him and he was feeling very special to have guests, not to mention another amazing highlight...some of the team wanted to ride in our van, which is the right team color and offers movies! oh, to be 5 :) i thank God for my lane (and all my other boys who i get to share this wonderful life with)<img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5401945309419764850" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhlMBqbACnbvANUhpZFLSBMk_6qd702guaVkbuKUQWS79KXAnIcTQW-4Pfv26kz-sn-uwoGXM5Wwf9CNerU9phcQYxQMBE98zykZc5KUtO8bwVDurVd9hSAfmLFJxGbNLrfPa4Oig/s400/turkey+shootout+09+058.JPG" border="0" /></div><div align="center">awesome new warm-ups and a back-up black uni and socks in case we clash with the other team! thanks to a gracious donor parent!!</div><div><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5401945303499165634" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiOQRnu4rbWWZubFM6gbooqUqHazhh6n9_rgNoyYWkLp9Gos-cIBnBKT5DTxun3Aac9TOSxJUu33_Pxauo6KLR_5DjRd40tzpiqJ6TlGp0cNsnK08m-91zhYmi0qq9iEEQEMe0WcQ/s400/turkey+shootout+09+057.JPG" border="0" /></div><br /><br /></div><p align="center">our coaches are amazing and love these boys! we also got a new popup bench...they all have their own backpacks. i've said it before - we look like little david beckhams. blue mohawks and all! :) Go Pride!</p>jjofarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04983309138069771662noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22254878.post-48941782895588600652009-11-01T23:00:00.004-06:002009-11-01T23:12:54.710-06:00<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjyS10shoya5pMRgzPijkjVn-v4Ag3VLUZ6pypNkUMTWhrb9jKrpdGog52oi70KdlL6ASVqty-w95em24ewb6Zs3YYlGeqUDBJd7ueNa_4XLvrHbj3e_RoJuvE623jS6KvJODS8ug/s1600-h/halloween+09+276.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5399367997709190946" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjyS10shoya5pMRgzPijkjVn-v4Ag3VLUZ6pypNkUMTWhrb9jKrpdGog52oi70KdlL6ASVqty-w95em24ewb6Zs3YYlGeqUDBJd7ueNa_4XLvrHbj3e_RoJuvE623jS6KvJODS8ug/s400/halloween+09+276.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><div align="center">first stop...Grandma Billie and Papa's<br /></div><div align="center"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgCMwa8JlgP6tFF2vzROeRD1EBDjuW26_IEKrhTBmts9EK6VBSV3c7dnTbuaultW7dz-aBniNOO9yW4FWQtgifmD9AY1V7PKlZ-n-kvw2hhi58g9Bx4sJBGSZQCTlhUWjB5Fyn2QQ/s1600-h/halloween+09+273.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5399367982228490786" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgCMwa8JlgP6tFF2vzROeRD1EBDjuW26_IEKrhTBmts9EK6VBSV3c7dnTbuaultW7dz-aBniNOO9yW4FWQtgifmD9AY1V7PKlZ-n-kvw2hhi58g9Bx4sJBGSZQCTlhUWjB5Fyn2QQ/s400/halloween+09+273.JPG" border="0" /></a> our pirate with a five o'clock shadow compliments of daddy :)<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEilCuoOxM1pM0w5PzMzca_SyUKtNC1BC4DSpqoR6n4zyBIMvVQtTsomXYq6dcE1kkoyWBW5V4a26YmDSoUxLAgz5I0Nph7neYdmWim7x4PUwP6KD3RjclHSEtJ6FfdlibYiHSq0hg/s1600-h/halloween+09+248.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5399367971654986834" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEilCuoOxM1pM0w5PzMzca_SyUKtNC1BC4DSpqoR6n4zyBIMvVQtTsomXYq6dcE1kkoyWBW5V4a26YmDSoUxLAgz5I0Nph7neYdmWim7x4PUwP6KD3RjclHSEtJ6FfdlibYiHSq0hg/s400/halloween+09+248.JPG" border="0" /></a>never thought i would have the opportunity to sew with the shiny materials :) or spray paint black dress shoes white...but he had fun with it!<br /><br /><br /><div><strong>halloween happenings...</strong></div><div>by the end of our short family trick-or-treat visits, Tate had Wyatt doing the 'stayin' alive' pose as well. he was still doing it tonight. so fun! we had a blast! we ended our night at a neighborhood block party outdoors, where shane was singing. there was a bonfire and good friends for mom and a jupiter jump for the boys. gotta love FALL!! we are so blessed! </div><br /></div>jjofarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04983309138069771662noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22254878.post-25654600559207428892009-10-26T05:18:00.001-05:002009-10-26T05:18:51.543-05:00Neva's Surprise 60th<div>I highly recommend animoto...super easy and a great result! My sweet mother-in-law does so much for so many people, it was nice to focus on her for one night!! She was SHOCKED!!! Success!!!!! </div><br /><script type="text/javascript" src="http://widgets.clearspring.com/o/46928cc51133af17/4ae57789c1dbfd0e/46928cc51133af17/deeac42e/widget.js"></script>jjofarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04983309138069771662noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22254878.post-42042782633946306602009-10-14T22:35:00.002-05:002009-10-14T22:47:08.725-05:00<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiHotu1SdoaqLhZ7lVrjiBKbAv7cwaFFbEcSq85yZEhxzpVHLNovQbKwVxYInAa-MjUV_2zLx9V9nOd3sPnPJXS6gL9wbL-dJG21pZ-ZBKKKw0f6G1IT14JFLt7cy1YBX8IoHMxtA/s1600-h/fall+09+010.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5392666268524889234" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiHotu1SdoaqLhZ7lVrjiBKbAv7cwaFFbEcSq85yZEhxzpVHLNovQbKwVxYInAa-MjUV_2zLx9V9nOd3sPnPJXS6gL9wbL-dJG21pZ-ZBKKKw0f6G1IT14JFLt7cy1YBX8IoHMxtA/s400/fall+09+010.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjngOsmk04qEW31WPRUb-qm1wrFJWKXMIFVZOZ5IUDXbR8uw9JpUCgFcff71ZZfm_XYar2FXphO2cfAMTnq0H6pY3Sdx2xRfMi0M2MBkzmcumOtiEayesQCHiBjlCFWqqoMXwt-dw/s1600-h/fall+09+012.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5392666258306635746" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjngOsmk04qEW31WPRUb-qm1wrFJWKXMIFVZOZ5IUDXbR8uw9JpUCgFcff71ZZfm_XYar2FXphO2cfAMTnq0H6pY3Sdx2xRfMi0M2MBkzmcumOtiEayesQCHiBjlCFWqqoMXwt-dw/s400/fall+09+012.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><div><strong>little stinkers...</strong></div><br /><div>wyatt is going to give us a run for our money!! two scenes here. 1) a nice innocent after church coloring session 2) it was way too quiet for a few minutes in the boys' room while i was trying to call all of the football parents to cancel practice due to the rain. Can you guess which is which?</div><div> </div><div>the two big boys are starting to irritate each other from time to time. the other day i was doing laundry around the corner from their room and hear.</div><div>'PLEASE stop, PLEASE be quiet!!,' said Tate.</div><div>'Be nice now. Talk sweetly to each other,' said Mom.</div><div>'Well, he will not quit making noises mom,' explains Tate.</div><div>'I was JUST singing 'Eye of the Tiger' mom,' says Lane. </div><div>hee hee!</div><div> </div></div>jjofarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04983309138069771662noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22254878.post-49623307619436185622009-09-23T00:08:00.002-05:002009-09-23T00:32:36.484-05:00<a href="http://thebeautystop.com/wp-content/uploads/2008/05/111.jpg"><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 368px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 368px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://thebeautystop.com/wp-content/uploads/2008/05/111.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div><br /><div><strong>me and kat von d</strong></div><div>i heart l.a.ink. not because i love tattoos or because i love the minimal drama of the shop workers. what i love is that deep down inside, i know that kat and i have a lot in common. hardy har har some of you are thinking. well, among many other things she has shared on the show, recently she has been heavily burdened by the stories of her clients. she has begun to have one of the gals at the shop help her sit down and go through her journals to weed through her personal emotions after tattooing them and get down to their real stories in order to put them in a book. i have no tattoos, my husband on the other hand...well, he would finish covering his body if he had the time and the spare cash. i do appreciate the art behind them, but i also admire her genuine tone and respect when she is dealing with someone who's story behind their tattoo seems almost too heart wrenching to be true. </div><div>i feel like this in class almost every day. this year alone, i have 7 move-ins to my homeroom class only. that means 7 kids who have had to start a BRAND new school for their last year of elementary. it would not seem so bad except 5 of those are from such extreme situations that if i told you, you would question the truth. i will not only write about each of them in my own journal, but pray for their safety and well being every time they cross my mind. our moment of silence this year to start the day has taken on a whole new meaning to me. they don't know that i am using that time to ask the Lord to bless their day and make them feel safe and loved while i am on watch.</div><div>maybe kat and i can get together. i would tell her that i am proud of her over two years of sobriety. i can explain to her that she is right about writing helping to vent and express your true feelings. my 15 hours of graduate work taught me that...ha ha (as well as years of doing it). and maybe, just maybe, she could teach me how to apply rockin' eye make-up...but not permanently.</div><br /><br /><div></div></div>jjofarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04983309138069771662noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22254878.post-90071094894435475802009-08-30T13:12:00.003-05:002009-08-30T13:19:28.781-05:00<div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgQl8NRpU6JwmYs_JRBe7P36ZdsSHPPoK5YcWWto0CLdqLxLdeP2rV6hge5KIF6aoZSGcVW6ZMkg77M-JBJEJxd2tyNNDDswYAt5VOccurfTIgwN9GzpVqzq2WDxKkI-IJ_0Yhiig/s1600-h/DSC04342.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5375822808051175874" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgQl8NRpU6JwmYs_JRBe7P36ZdsSHPPoK5YcWWto0CLdqLxLdeP2rV6hge5KIF6aoZSGcVW6ZMkg77M-JBJEJxd2tyNNDDswYAt5VOccurfTIgwN9GzpVqzq2WDxKkI-IJ_0Yhiig/s400/DSC04342.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi7pbS7ATRdwpQSax3qdSNN_RT-GUPxxHz8j1IuYpQi0wffXdkRXhd1oJ9Jzz0-_8RR7ExqB0prVdiXOF5bxnferI1icTxzQ8taSnQ9hl2reDRNil4MzA2JXJ8uC6X59qUpasBC5A/s1600-h/DSC04348.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5375822793441028226" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi7pbS7ATRdwpQSax3qdSNN_RT-GUPxxHz8j1IuYpQi0wffXdkRXhd1oJ9Jzz0-_8RR7ExqB0prVdiXOF5bxnferI1icTxzQ8taSnQ9hl2reDRNil4MzA2JXJ8uC6X59qUpasBC5A/s400/DSC04348.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiE4NpqExxAfhMGyT5nd41YBCvTrW0KoOYIzvJI3N3nfYo-6PJ_I9vv-Gt9e3JRrheQVQ-zps6K5qhRuvcQyr371I8Y2JYQHJyGjxWoPftrFqthTVs31nbygHLlTEQVG_iAUwbf5Q/s1600-h/DSC04371.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5375822786769759794" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiE4NpqExxAfhMGyT5nd41YBCvTrW0KoOYIzvJI3N3nfYo-6PJ_I9vv-Gt9e3JRrheQVQ-zps6K5qhRuvcQyr371I8Y2JYQHJyGjxWoPftrFqthTVs31nbygHLlTEQVG_iAUwbf5Q/s400/DSC04371.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><div><strong>football and the flu...</strong></div><br /><div>our first game of the season and coach Shane told the parents that we made great strides! no one cried and we made 3 first downs!! :)<br /></div><div>we took allergy boy to the doc thinking he needed something stronger and they sent us with a mask on to the hospital for an h1n1 test. he tested positive for influenza A and we will not find out if it is specifically 'swine' for 10 days. no sweat right? well, that is how they acted and even said if he is fever free to send him back to school on monday. my sweet boy...mommy is having a hard time, but he is fine! <img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5375822818171262258" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEigIAVzbjg8qF95g7r9bIXc_z21vkT49f_qhGBBEv9dnN-DGo1sM2zE341DHhjjteZ8gdmItwoP56t6EOGWHgX_xv1Tp8qRfJQEfDwVQ7bRFG3JmTWdWvm1Q_Wx79jaYBfQ8fmLng/s400/DSC04375.JPG" border="0" /></div></div></div></div>jjofarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04983309138069771662noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22254878.post-86288358620753345182009-08-07T08:11:00.003-05:002009-08-07T08:32:39.586-05:00<div><strong><span style="font-size:180%;">nothing sweeter...</span></strong></div><br /><div></div><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEju4ROHvp4HhFJRSMP9_S0-JR_w_PrQGcGnkByffo7UrMOKj0niDACYmm6zIBmJqyBjyUlxVFpdh8K_xjM81DHoUtcimOsB9BGT9eCa-hedmxMZ3lGAeGHrum08rx_KDZufJNKcUw/s1600-h/late+summer+09+026.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5367210080261815442" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEju4ROHvp4HhFJRSMP9_S0-JR_w_PrQGcGnkByffo7UrMOKj0niDACYmm6zIBmJqyBjyUlxVFpdh8K_xjM81DHoUtcimOsB9BGT9eCa-hedmxMZ3lGAeGHrum08rx_KDZufJNKcUw/s400/late+summer+09+026.JPG" border="0" /></a> nothing sweeter than a hot, sweaty 8 year old after his first football practice. it has been a fun week getting to know the sport a little better. we always relied on these other dads to be in charge of teaching my brother the positions, etc. we were merely there to cheer him on. that became ironic later in life. tate is loving it and true to form, seems a natural at the concept of it all. he is a little bruised, which is making mommy upset, but he could care less.</div><br /><div>another nothing sweeter...</div><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5367214034611188610" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi-E8mmCCxml977OT3JeXQKXwGuQ40aOg0zJYUpn1C8Tl0pgRQD3NPQQCHoX3bfkTj5924QBXMS3hOzuOMJ_6i219aSH7NxgFUcqLl59Dt6dBEM7xY6DiGIseEOstnxBRMvGj6QoA/s400/DSC04317.JPG" border="0" /><br /><div></div><br /><div><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5367210072422586082" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEioQ1yRbQ6_yqmtPUa5vqFq1HfC3IF6WhbdSm7n3_upDvDqu1Ps4L7-jIYvwfhChMZDguxC2JSodRJAXNCoSj39eoW-MF6D2N6WG-Ti9pFfXZwBRZIJd3z2Hy7qTSaciQUX1iqfMA/s400/late+summer+09+031.JPG" border="0" /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5367210063602403890" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 293px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg_rbVwPTFqU4P6MLM0BvSvI0gL5LM0fbRgZAlXFdgT9naOWHSLPkzVEJ4egFIu5d6uFh5sI9kdTlRKWymAVjN1XFcuA3Ge6nA7tFxF1Kyu5Hg-hvFAGz4OC9JSVKvCEfI46WdxWA/s400/late+summer+09+032.JPG" border="0" />a recipe box for my tree loving sister who found one similar on etsy. ever shop etsy? please do! such a favorite idea haven of mine and one of the only places i repeatedly shop online.</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>i did my best to reinvent what she saw and it was a ton of fun. i made the dividers and included a few of my recipes that she likes. i snuck a quote in, because that's what i do. it is messy, but i like it that way inside the lid as a little reminder to her when she opens it that she is beautiful. </div><br /><div>"There is no spectacle on Earth more appealing than that of a beautiful woman in the act of cooking for someone she loves." - Thomas Wolfe</div><br /><div><br /><div><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh-pnBH-A2_fVXmViZVao-t2yZ4u49D8QMDDh6jtVHVqOXqb8-LOvmRdmYVHub73BpBLMg_RkcpMVdBrONVUkDGkRpUiGFABf9qUUTstYPIfG31_N1N2UWJ6g4BFKblCJqW3D9nuA/s1600-h/late+summer+09+034.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5367210053660807394" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 300px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 400px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh-pnBH-A2_fVXmViZVao-t2yZ4u49D8QMDDh6jtVHVqOXqb8-LOvmRdmYVHub73BpBLMg_RkcpMVdBrONVUkDGkRpUiGFABf9qUUTstYPIfG31_N1N2UWJ6g4BFKblCJqW3D9nuA/s400/late+summer+09+034.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><div>have a blessed weekend!</div></div></div></div>jjofarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04983309138069771662noreply@blogger.com2